On being kind to yourself
I realized today that I think things about myself that, if I ever heard anyone say them about anyone I loved, I'd be furious. The worst part is that that same feeling doesn't come up when I think those things. It just feels natural for me to be cruel to myself.
I'm saying this here rather than to a private journal for two reasons:
- To help anyone else who's feeling this way. You're not the only one struggling to be kind to yourself. It's really fucking hard. But you deserve to be shown kindness. Hopefully this serves as a sign for you to start.
- To snap myself out of it, at least a little. I want to try to notice when I say terrible things to myself. Maybe repeat them to notice how absurd they are. Like, Inch, if you said that to a child, they'd cry. If you said that to a friend, it would scar them. Give yourself a fucking break! Hug yourself, for god's sake! (And that goes for whoever's reading this, too!)